Please dont beat up on yourself if you dont get it right overnight. Caving in is a sign of exhaustion, not agreement. I recommend praying very simply to say, Im sorry, I feel bad that I laughed at a bad joke. All those swarming insects gave me the heebie-jeebies! I am going to try this method where I have a sorting system in my mind, all these thoughts that are not mine go back where it came from, and the thoughts that are mine come into my brain. Being able to say a fancy, perfect prayer or affirmation of faith is not the point. Forthe name of God isblasphemed among the Gentiles because of you,as it is written. Not let them bother me as much knowing that it is not my fault. Ego-dystonic thoughts, also, may be objectively correct or incorrect but they are perceived as being at odds with the self. God isnt caught in a web of trying to figure this stuff out. So lets imagine, then, that you arent being purposeful or willful in committing blasphemy. But you know who else felt like this? Focusing inward leads to rumination and self-condemnation, and it is not helpful. Continue with Recommended Cookies. Strange, intrusive thoughts about God or the Holy Spirit are dangerous thoughts because we feel they could cause us to lose our relationship with God or even our eternal life. And such WERE some of you. Beyond what Ive already written in this article, just know that youre not alone in this fear. Why do I get feelings of numbness, disconnection, depersonalization when I get blasphemous thoughts? Any suggestions ? One day I was talking to God about how I was feeling due to intrusive thoughts. I want to be in Heaven with God one day. I know it was a mistake, but I also know that You still love me. Apostle Paul before he became a follower of Jesus, used to have Christians persecuted and killed. It would just be a matter of searching for OCD specialists and then sorting out the ones who are familiar with religious OCD themes. As you learn healthier ways of preventing the OCD escalation, you will probably have less of these kinds of episodes. He is for us, not against us. We hurt together when you hurt. On the other hand, an ego-dystonic thought is any thought which seems to conflict with the ego. Hi Jamie. I had a mental breakdown due to this issue. hi my name Silvestar i have these unwanted blasphemous thought it started on this year from 5 January till now i have been struggling i seek reassurance from my friends i try to stop them but I cannot I try and try but I feel exhausted it effect my everyday life and I can do anything I just try my Saviour and I hope I would get freedom oneday and I hope God is always on time, what would I do I have an exam next month but I can concentrate to my studies. I questioned everything and analyzing everything in my life to the point of depression. Please help, Ocd attacks when I read my Bible (possible trigger warning ), What is the Reformed understanding about experience of the Holy Spirit. God doesnt mind us wondering about if things are real or fake. I am exhausted emotionally and physically. People naturally think about things that offend them. Your blasphemous thoughts dont define you. This is not your fault and it isnt something to be ashamed of. THANK YOU GREATLY FOR THIS INFORMATION. Blasphemy of the Holy Spirit is the intentional rejection of the Lord's work. Jaimie. What will this mean for my eternal salvation? Dane. We never seen Jesus or God but we simply believe by faith that He's real. Don't let your feelings guide you but your faith. Thank you for your help I appreciate it very much. God is our Creator, our King, and our Lord. Instead of taking this lesson as a failure, learn from it. I really really found this site helpful.. One day when you stand upon the sea of glass in the New Jerusalem you will be able to look back and understand perfectly what God was doing in your life all along. You say YOUR thoughts are more powerful than other people? This cookie is used to track the user's interaction with facebook chat widget. Since the bees die when stinging you, they save their stings for life-or-death situations like protecting the hive. Do i still have the scrupulousity or it is just myself? I think I'm still young, 18 yo, Brazilian now living in Japan, but I already messed up a lot, really sad. She broke it off because of church and God, so I started going to her church hoping to win her back. Be of good courage and keep pressing forward! After you've read all of Psalm, read Proverbs. One day during this meeting, the mail clerk brought him a lavender envelope sealed with an ornate wax seal and bound with elegant ribbons. These cookies help provide information on metrics the number of visitors, bounce rate, traffic source, etc. If its your OCD, again, ask God for help. Keep right on going and ignore these thoughts. Remember, God is like a shower: He receives you just as you are, dirty and all covered with filthbut like the shower, He does not LEAVE you that way! He reserved this warning for those who were already hardened in unbelief. Thats past tense. ", "I curse HELL. Youve noted that these thoughts began after a very traumatic spiritual experience (excommunication and shunning is probably the second worst type of spiritual trauma, after being abused by clergy). This cycle of trying to remember if we actually did something bad or not is so annoying, right? Occasionally I was daring God to come down and face me as a human. I'm in my 50s, but dealt with the same thing as you in my teens. The Bible says a Just man falls seven times and rises up again Proverbs 24:16. I don't want to go to hell for all eternity for blaspheming the Holy Spirit. God is your Heavenly Father, Friend, & Counselor. I hope this puts your mind and heart at ease. But its ok, God loves us anyways! I hope my reply helps. Before you continue reading, it will be important to have your blasphemous thoughts results in mind as you read this guide. I finally understand what it means to fully trust that all is forgiven. The horrible blasphemous thoughts are ongoing constantly. I am left in great doubt wondering if they are just my own thoughts or false. And I felt so much relief. I had a hard time believing in or contacting God. Neither fornicators, nor idolaters, nor adulterers, nor homosexuals, nor sodomites, nor thieves, nor covetous, nor drunkards, nor revilers, nor extortioners will inherit the kingdom of God. If youve based your understanding of blasphemous thoughts on only one or two verses, you might be astonished to see the complexity and layers of nuance in the complete picture. This is a constricted, incomplete picture of what blasphemy means! They made it difficult for me to pray, attend church or even read the Bible without feeling overwhelming negativity. Christians may worry that they will commit the unforgivable sin, but they should not fret. This is a requirement to be a child of God. However, the key to forgiveness is repentance. I thought i was the only person in this world going through this. It must have been God reassuring me that He understands what I'm battling mentally. Best regards Oje possible, Hi Sister. It was important enough to be recorded in all three synoptic gospels Matthew, Mark, and Luke. Clarence L. Haynes Jr. is a speaker, Bible teacher, and co-founder of The Bible Study Club. And i also think i have this thoughts from drugs. But for you, I will say to do more, as youre able to handle it. Life is not random, things happen with God always watching. you want your last session to NOT involve a religious intrusive thought so you can have a feeling of making a clean break with it). Copyright 2023 Scrupulosity Solutions, LLC., All Rights Reserved. Ive been really numb not just with this but with everything in my life. - Hath never forgiveness.Not that any sinner need despair of forgiveness through the fear that he may have committed this sin; for his repentance shows that his state of mind has never been one of entire enmity, and that he has not so grieved the Holy Spirit as to have been entirely forsaken by him. That verse, as well as Hebrews 10:26 and Hebrews 6:4-6 always scared me because of the things i said and did. Amirrah, thankfully, nowhere in the Bible does it tell us to serve God with our feelings. No place of repentance, I think, means he couldnt do it. But opting out of some of these cookies may affect your browsing experience. Help I'm in so much pain after that. I pray in Jesus name for healing, peace and for God to take this burden from your mind. A bad mistake. I know many here are out to grow spiritually. I have a video that talks about this exact thingI encourage you to look through the videos! People with OCD seem to have a predisposition to these kinds of repetitive, anxious thought cycles. But if I don't eliminate this OCD problem, I may keep worrying, obsessing about it and keep feeling anxious and stressed. God, YOUR Heavenly Father, Counselor, Friend, and Creator knows EVERYTHING about You. We do try to earn our salvation. All my love !! And you know if you would like to reach out and talk about it. Thankfully, our intrusive thoughts aren't us. All I've wanted to do was love, serve, and walk close with the Lord, as I've seen with others.. but I'm so so so so close to giving up. The blasphemous thought brings an incredible load of false guilt and feelings of impending doom. I think that the evidence clearly points to Christianity, and the other religions or atheism are not attractive to me. Praying for you. For example, thoughts of this nature can lead to feelings of guilt and shame, which may cause people to avoid the thoughts or even engage in behavior that contradicts their religious beliefs. I said one of his prayers out loud and it helped. i found an online romantic relationshipfell into more sin, lost my emotions againand lost my dad. I also use to feel a strong sensation of preaching the gospel in which if I don't,I will feel so much condemned,I don't use to preach it because I think I will be a liar.What can I do in such situations sir? Please pray for me. I highly recommend his book, which will answer much of your concerns. It will help. The brain is just saying, hey, lets take a cool down period for a while. Dont give up, youll be alright. The disciple Peter cut off a man's ear. Part of our Christian growth experience is leaving behind the faulty conceptions weve picked up about Him (from parents, from church members, from society/culture). I know that I believe in God. God understands and extends His mercy. Im exhausted and terrified. Instead of chasing after God for emotional validation and love, you chased after women. I know WELL that God knows my thoughts, but have strong feelings that he hates me. God created Eve because He knew it wasn't good for Adam to be alone. They only feel that way. Stop being hard on yourself. When Jesus talked about this, the words he used were indeed frightening: And so I tell you, every kind of sin and slander can be forgiven, but blasphemy against the Spirit will not be forgiven. People love to pick out verses here and there to build a case without any attention to the context. but i pushed the bible away after reasoning with myself and God. I never felt safe. But, dear brain, you have sorely underestimated my evilness. I want to forget about it, my last masturbation can't be like this, I don't want to remember it and remember that my last one was this bad, that's a trauma. I just realized how many typos are contained in the post. God taught me that the last thing we want to do is to hide from Him. It seems alien, as though coming from outside the true self. It is unwanted, unplanned, uninitiated. I've been suffering with Scrupulosity since 1994.. When he took a stand, it was on behalf of the Father (John 2:14-17) and, in this case, the Holy Spirit. This is very typical OCD. Typically, these are people who have scrupulosity, also known asreligious OCD. If thoughts have true power, why cant the cancer patient think her way to health rather than going through agonizing and expensive treatments? People with religious OCD spend a significant time ruminating and trying to figure out whether the thoughts are from them or not. I dont believe this is a one-time thing, but it is an ongoing rejection of the work of the Holy Spirit, of over and over again attributing his precious work to Satan himself. I had focused so much on the blaspheming part that I forgot (or never knew/realized in the first place) that it also said speaking against the Holy Spirit is unforgivable. Jesus was tempted, yet he did not sin. Thank you for giving me the idea. I put it behind the bureau. I want to believe it because I want to be saved. To view the purposes they believe they have legitimate interest for, or to object to this data processing use the vendor list link below. Any any that is related to emotions, self-esteem, insomnia, anger, relationship dynamics due to mental health and recovery and other issues that don't fit better in another forum would be examples of topics that might go there. None of your thoughts were chosen. Be blessed! God is a just God but He is also a loving understanding Father who fully understands the battles in our mind. I almost went insane over it felt discouraged to do persue the work of God. I've struggled with these thoughts since. I have always believed in Jesus and loved the comfort he brought me. And because of that I find it hard to get back/closer to God. This is when Jesus pulled out the big guns. Whenever I get bad thoughts these days they come with the urge or impulse like I feel like laughing or smiling sometimes what does this indicates. If youre looking for one-on-one support, you can also consider getting therapy from an OCD specialist on the NOCD app. However, when it comes to willful, purposeful blasphemy, there are a number of factors involved. The passages that give the background story are in Matthew 12:22-32 and Mark 3:20-30. I was stuck with a job I hated. Can I find healing from this or am I too far gone? Only the King can make legal rulings to dole out justice or forgive sins. God bless you, I am praying for you, Same I can relate , Im thinking of going to like a camp that brings people closer to god I NEED accountability bc I have became VERY lazy and numb. Hi. Now under grace, we have to fight for Gods love and fight our flesh so we can have a RELATIONSHIP with God and not just rules, rules and rules. I pray for God to restore my faith and deliver me from this, but he doesn't. Thank you so much. Wishing you the best in your journey Jaimie. The metaphor that is used over and over in the Bible (and, in my opinion, has been thrown around so cheaply in Christian circles that is almost becomes cliche enough that we dont consider the incredible power in it) is the metaphor of the Father and child. (Blasphemy towards god). Same I wish someone wrote a book about this bc reading the comments were all going through THE SAME THING AND FEELINGS! He has become more fake even if He is The One i belive in mlre than everything ive ever seen. Again, this idea is echoed in Psalm 139: OLord,You have searched me and knownme.You know my sitting down and my rising up;Youunderstand my thought afar off.Youcomprehend my path and my lying down,And are acquainted with all my ways. But for some people, they can come with so much repetition and intensity that you might feel like you're going crazy. Continue with Recommended Cookies. Our parents, society, schools, friends, and colleagues feed us input about whats true and false about the world. All of it , I pray to him, but I think I understand, aside from that I dont even know if I happen to have a bad thought so I confess it again? It just keeps coming back and consuming your attention. These are the things that Christians do and regret doing and have to repent of doing and ask forgiveness for doing. Will you make my motives pure? But I assure you, there are so, so many in the religious OCD community who would come and pat you on the shoulder and say, me too. So first of all, please feel the concentrated love and support of myself and the 4,000 others who are regular readers of this website. My name is Jenn and i am 38 years old. Did we really mean to think that blasphemous thought? Thanks for this info, but I'm still not entirely sure about how to deal with my blasphemous thoughts. For example, you may believe that thinking about the color yellow will make something bad happen. At the root of it we need to discern that these unwanted thoughts are largely from a mental health disorder, not from our spiritual experience with God. I used to get drunk, have premarital sex, smoke pot, chew tobacco, and God helped me through it all when I kept praying for help from Him to do it. We either overly-engage with compulsive spiritual practices, or compulsively AVOID them out of fear of anxiety rising up. Any advice would be appreciated. I always responded to the blasphemous thoughts and the cycle repeats. Thanks Jamie, your reply really mean so much to me. Hi Amy, Please dont feel bad about telling your parents. Rod. I hope you don't mind me replying to your comment. The second OCD lesson we can take from the honeybee is the value of not responding when we feel endangered. Hi, Thank you for this article. How would I know if repentance is real? Even when I felt confused, stressed, and angry, I blamed myself. This may happen because the constant struggle against bad thoughts leads to mental and emotional exhaustion. :(. The very fact that you are bothered by these blasphemous thoughts is evidence they are not your thoughts. But after some time, I guess I kinda gave up in a sense. And its pretty tiring. I feel a little disturbed at any church environment where people can walk up to each other and condemn each other by saying youre like Samson or would tell you to ask forgiveness for rejecting grace. This cookie is set by GDPR Cookie Consent plugin. Recognize that these negative feelings will not hurt you, even though they are very uncomfortable. No one knows your heart except God. Give yourself time and mercy, and I think youll see things reduce back down to a manageable level. I'm also afraid of being unable to truly repent, having a seared conscience or a reprobate mind. Will God turn his back on me? Now, not every ego-syntonic thought is objectively correct. Does the Bible Condemn Using Tarot Cards? It's to do what the teachers of the law were in danger of doing. You do not need to clean up your act before God accepts you. You are sealed. We must seek God (this is a CHOICE, not a feeling) and if/when He wants, He will reward us with good feelings. One more text, Luke 12:10: And everyone who speaks a word against the Son of Man will be forgiven, but the one who blasphemes against the Holy Spirit will not be forgiven. Over the span of my ministry there have been several people probably a lot more people dont come forward, but these came forward who came to me deeply convinced they had committed the sin against the Holy Spirit and were therefore beyond forgiveness.
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